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Curious - how old do you think I am?

And to those that do know my age. Please don’t snitch 🙏

You're 30yrs old single and finally choosing peace over settling.

Hello hello hello

So they're not only sponsoring / enabling a gen^cide, but also taking away drinking water from humans to spy on us through data centres...? smh

https://x.com/i/status/2077069063574966595

Turns out a very very good night sleep might result in a couple of absurd dreams that have no correlation whatsoever with one another.

Tracking 16/7/2026

Questions that are always asked :
Do you have a boyfriend?
When are you getting married?

What else🤔

Any book self-improvement recommendations?

It's 1:00am

I'm lying on my bed trying to sleep and suddenly all the thoughts and memories of her came barreling in and hit me like a truck

A sudden surge of emotions that's I've had repressed for years to keep myself sane, just exploded and now I have no idea what to do and how to feel

A single tear rolls down, and then another, and another, and now I can't stop myself from crying. Crying so much that my chest hurts, my throat hurts, my heart feels heavy. I can't stop the crying

I scream all my sadness and hurt Into my pillow, this inanimate object has seen me at my lowest, although I'm not sure if that would be my lowest, because it seems I keep finding myself going lower and lower

I thought I had moved on.

Like actually moved on.

I convinced myself I was fine. That everything that happened was just...something in the past.

But then tonight..out of nowhere, I opened a previous message by mistake.. and suddenly it all came back.

Every late night.

Every message.

Every "goodnight" that felt like it meant something real.

We were something. At least I thought we were.

March 29th, 2024. I still remember the date like it's stuck in me. Back then, everything felt certain. We talked about everything..like nothing could break it. We emailed, we texted every day, stayed up way too late... and I genuinely believed it was real.

I trusted it.

I trusted her.

And maybe that's the part that hurts the most.

Because while I was giving my everything...I had no idea what was happening behind my back..

Now it's July 2026.

Two years later. And somehow, one random night, one random message...and I'm right back there again.

Missing her.

Missing what I thought we had.

And yeah, I still don't understand why she did it. I probably never will.

But what hurts isn't just losing her.

It's realizing that something you believed in so deeply... wasn't what you thought it was.

I keep thinking every damn day..was I not enough? Was I just blind the whole time?

I don't know.

I guess some things don't fully leave you.
You just learn to carry them quieter

It's 4:00am and I can't sleep