Listen I do not wish this upon anyone especially you but be truthful with yourself if you like someone physically initiate convos with them most of the time men will likely go with it and maybe you can build off that

Don't ruin your life just because everyone is telling you 'it's time' or 'you are getting old'.
Allah is the only one who decrees. Not man.

If you do that , don’t let homeboy know , that’ll be a quick way to end your marriage