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So a lot of you muslim women dont want to help out financially but you want men to help you financially and on top of that you want him to help with housework and childcare. Make it make sense

I’m not suicidal but I can’t wait for the next life.
Alhamdulillah

Asalamalaikum—this is a long read and long video watch so beware hahaha k you’ve been warned. Finding out these last couple years that I’m autistic, I’ve learned to just accept that I yap a lot even if it’s to myself, Allah, or jinn listening lol

Anyways.

Being a revert in this world is so beyond eye opening
Going from not knowing Islam at all and being raised Christian/Catholic and used to a life of partying and drugs and music and desires being what I thought gave me life
I used to be very suicidal, just before I found Islam I was going through years of contemplating it and thinking how my family would feel and I had been in mental hospital and ICU many times, I was known to always wear rubber bands in the later years after cutting many years I was at a point where my healing process was to try to snap rubber bands on myself pretty dang hard to try to keep myself from cutting anymore and that actually worked Alhamdulillah but the thoughts didn’t go away. I’m 37 years old and it wasn’t until I found Islam in 2023 that the thoughts finally completely disappeared. Nov 2nd was the night of my shahada, it was actually on TikTok and I went to a masjid 2 days later which ended up being a Friday.
Honestly the night I took shahada I found Allah and Muhammad SAW literally on TikTok and the suicidal tendencies in my head completely vanished and I was so completely happy and distracted from even thinking about it that I didn’t even realize it was gone at first, like for the first time I actually knew my purpose was to find Islam. Since I became Muslim Alhamdulillah, I truly know that Allah kept me alive for a purpose. I’ve probably given at least 10 shahada on TikTok, couple in real life I’ve been a part of and and even a Christian orphanage of about 17 Alhamdulillah all by the will of Allah SWT. I go to the masjid by myself at times now and I’m learning azan and such. Have a few surahs memorized and trying to learn more InshaAllah.
Also haven’t ate pork or alcohol since. And I cut out gelatin as much as I can too. I used to be a club promoter. Music was my life and my plans for life. Astaghfirallah I truly made music my god at times I didn’t even believe in god. I wanted to die listening to music straight up. I used to wear headphones around my neck cause I couldn’t function much without music. Anyways I been diabetic since I was 6 years old. And it was always a nightmare and music and hard drugs used to be my escape. I always was mad at whatever I believed in at the time for years I ended up identifying as spiritual because I was the last person to believe in God in my 30s as I had already proved there was corruption in scripture to myself but I didn’t know Islam / Muhammad SAW or the Quran even existed.
I was raised trinity believer but I never completely believed it. Always felt things were off. This is just part of my story. I didn’t really think this post would be this long, but just wait till you hear my story as I give it to a Christian on TikTok and there is much more details. As I said I don’t really talk about the fact I was suicidal very much, especially since Allah took those thoughts away from me Alhamdulillah. But listen. I died a few times. I always there was something just didn’t believe the revelation I knew of. Something happened to me, years before I found Islam, I died, Allah saved me and put me back in my body. And the crazy part is, my soul was pulled out of my throat. This was a diabetic episode I had and it was really scary. I basically went so low because I took the wrong amount of insulin and I was done but wallahi Allah gave me another chance. I know that this is not the only life. I literally know it cause Allah showed me and many years later, 6 months after being Muslim, I was reading and literally just dropped to the floor crying and thanking Allah and sending blessings on Muhammad SAW because what I was reading happened to me and it was in the Quran
75:26
Read this and it will blow your mind and this isn’t all of my story of how I even found Islam. But please watch this if you want to increase your faith.
Everyone’s journey is different, don’t try to be perfect, I made that mistake at first, I became so worried about messing up at all that I tried to fix everything at once and that really made it more hard on myself. The Quran didn’t come down in 1 night. It was over a period of 23 years. Because it’s a lot of information that you are not used to when you don’t know about it. When you don’t know about this clear guidance that is not a trinity you have to trick yourself into believing. Just be patient Alhamdulillah, the Quran is a big part of history that a lot of people have been kept from knowing the truth of. But when you are a revert and find Islam in your heart. It will change your life. Remember Allah. Remember that you have the truth.
With hardship comes ease
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When I took my shahada on TikTok they gave me the name Abdullah🙂‍↔️
Alright so I’m done rambling lol
Please enjoy the YT video.
Asalamalaikum and may Allah bless our ummah continuously Ameen
Our reward is paradise, do not forget that.
I used to be a party animal haha look at me now 😅❤️☪️
#FREEPALESTINE
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If anyone here for chat???but I am looking for a loyal

Im new here
Is there any serious person here?🤨

Love isn't about finding someone perfect; it's about finding someone who makes life better.

​"If marriage doesn't happen for me on Muzz, I'm going to eat chocolate."

How am I supposed to feel when I’m very very picky with the people I like back, as I know exactly what I want , and once I do this they unmatch without even starting a conversation ? It literally happened twice .. Even though I’m not a bad looking or anything I even have only one picture on this app .. I feel very down and frustrated..

Me right now