Converts / Reverts

Eid, like Ramadan even after being a Muslim for over 20 years is difficult for me. Some of it is admittedly self inflicted and class/culture based. Or perhaps it is just personal preference, my Islam remains deeply personal and not so social. There always comes multiple moments within my local Muslim environment and community where I quietly feel an outsider. Silicon Valley is rough that way, you honestly couldn't really ask for a more broad and welcoming ummah, it has all the acoutrements and then more. So I wonder. We obviously all live in the shadow of predominantly non-Muslim even secular social world, here in the USA.

Insh'allah, He will provide for my dua to settle my heart of this disquiet and unease. It is strange that I still feel am outsider on the one hand, while others feel me too much of an insider, since I know many of our community luminaries, and some know me by my reputation or my service in or to the community. Now as the leadership generation shifts away from my own, and I am an "Uncle" in more than one community it shifts dynamics.

At one point I was the one who the Feds watched (they still do, they never stop watching), while at the same time I was one of the people others came to as they also came under scrutiny, justifiably so or otherwise. I sometimes wish my journey were less unique, perhaps it would have been an easier balance between my various worlds. But this is my circumstance, the one I was both born into and made (and made from).

Sabr remains.... enough, and as Allah swt is my refuge the more reflective and quiet, I become. Our Prophet pbuh, and his temperance of manner, with our brothers and sisters never ceases to amaze in a world such as our own, where sabr, and adab and seemingly a gentle formulation of Iman are so rare a thing. My own experiences with life are not a gentle one, to my "born muslim" brother's and sister's, you take what you have for granted. You have no idea how precious and fragile a world you have, even though the savagery of history takes this moment to make us victims. The rest of the world outside of the dar al Islam may seem appealing, but trust me, it is and can regularly be a vicious, savage and brutal place, far, very, very, very far from the peace and grace the deen can and does provide.

Insh'allah, Peace be Upon You

Assalamualaikum, I'm seeking a spouse who is serious about islam and aakhira. I'd like a simple wedding in the mosque among the closest kin followed by an Umrah, inshallah. Do approach if you find interest in my profile. Jazakallah khair.

Oh Allah! 🤲
Grant us a beautiful life that is free from debt, free from poverty, free from enemies, free from despair, free from anxiety, free from sins, and blessed with a supportive work environment!
​Ameen. 😭🤲
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What do you think about the saying: Take the woman who understands you and not the one who loves you.

مارأيك في المقولة : خذ المرأة التي تفهمك ليست التي تحبك.

Looking for an anti-patriarchal Muslim husband ☺️🥰

Good books for reverts…. Go!

Don’t wait for wealth to give. The Prophet (PBUH) said: ‘Guard yourself from the Fire even with half a date.’ Your small help matters hugely."